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Honestly, don't know how to start this one.

SO I'm just going to jog down my current thoughts. WHAT IS HAPPENING? but at the same time, all is well in the universe. My current state is very calm and casual and quiet. Yea, I've been very quiet lately. Keeping the majority of my thoughts to myself as they come. Sorting them out. Letting go of old beliefs and habits while simultaneously welcoming new ones. It's been

an interesting journey, lots & LOTS of self-reflecting. What's my part in all this? It's major. I've been puzzled with how do I play my role, what is required of me? The answer: just be yourself. Show up exactly as who you are & do the work. The work that matters to you. I keep thinking about my impact of the life I live; my legacy. but I have to show up. I have to be present. 'Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate, our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us...' Still the realest shit I've ever heard. I had a conversation with an old friend' today about life and who we are and how great we are and how we cannot hold back because we don't want to offend others. 'Your playing small does not serve the world....' IT DOES NOT. I keep praying to God to keep my heart and mind intact. I don't want to "get lost in the sauce" & yet, I am reminded that I can never truly be "lost" with God.